Stopping my death : 1

Like I said before the purpose of this blog is to “make something of myself”. I am such a looser, I cannot believe what I’ve just done today.

Let me clear up this post. The title could have been just as well “Living a healthy beautiful life : 1″. What am I talking about? Simple

Smoking.

I am desperately wanting to quit smoking. I’ll tell you all about it, in hope that, if I succeed, other smokers might learn from my experience and throw away the damn things (love ‘em and hate ‘em at the same time).

But let me get back to what I’ve done today. Woke up with a horrible headache (like usual since I started the damn things) and decided this is it. Today is the day I change my life. Smoked 3 smokes (a.k.a. cigarettes) and was happy that from that moment I was a non-smoker. It took me about 12 hours until I put another one in my mouth!

I cannot believe me! So weak… Spartans would have definitely thrown me off the hill. All day the only thing on my mind were cigarettes. I couldn’t focus on anything! Had a lot to do today and didn’t complete one single task! How screwed up is this? Am I that addicted? Can’t I exist and operate without a smoke? Besides the fact that I couldn’t concentrate I felt extremely nervous, irritated and with no mood for anything! Basically I just lost a whole day, tortured my boyfriend and disappointed myself.

Of course I have a perfectly logical explanation for all this drama: This is not the good time to quit smoking. I have 2 more weeks of exams and therefore stress. I should do this right: pass the exams and THEN stop smoking.

Using this brilliant logic I decided to quit smoking FOREVER AND EVER starting on Monday, July 02 2007. Can I do it? I think I can. Forever? Foreverever.